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2003-04-19T05:46:00.000-07:00

.New Blog!!. <--- click here to go see my new design +wheee+ + New design thingies + Urhm. go see my new blog thingie and tell me what you think.. blasting__________Nice to know you :: Incubus - Brandon.boyd.rox feeling___________Satisfied

2003-04-18T07:51:00.000-07:00

[ d i a r y l a n d ? ] Fuck it. Diaryland has nicer template designs and i have this insane urge to change my blogging thingie to there. ARGH. - smashes head repeatedly against the wall - choices. choices. so many choices. ARGHHHHHHHHHHH....God i hate making them. Someone tell me if this template's fine or should i change before i go insane. Blasting__________Radiohead :: Karma Police

2003-04-18T04:38:00.000-07:00

[ t u r n on the t v ] PRINCE OF EGYPT IS ON..wheeeeeeeeeee.. go watch.

2003-04-17T21:34:00.000-07:00

INCUBUS ROX I suggest we learn to love ourselves before it's made illegal. When will we learn? When will we change? Just in time to see it all fall down. Those left standing... will make millions... writing books on the way it should have been. When she woke in the morning she knew that her life had passed her by. And she called out a warning, "Don't ever let life pass you by." - Warning ::

2003-04-17T09:00:00.000-07:00

- GAHHH - Looks like HJ couldnt help much. Can anyone put some scrolling bar thingie at the bottom of this page for those pathetic 800x600 users? You 800x600 people owe me one -grumbles-

2003-04-17T08:57:00.000-07:00

+ p i s s e d o f f + Yay. My mom just took the keyboard away. If you're wondering how she did it, it's because i have a damned cordless keyboard thingie. And yes. I took it back. God. What is wrong with her? I mean seriously. whats the big deal with ME using the keyboard after 11? There isnt anything to do at home anyway, so i might as well just do my thing on the computer. I dont disturb

2003-04-17T02:44:00.000-07:00

+ kiss.my.ass + Jocelyn.is.very.very.Bored Hahaha..i just love those moving thingies. They are so annoyingly cute. ( : I'm bored. Sigh. Just came home from J8. Went for lunch and coffee with maryann. Didnt do abit of studying. I feel disappointed with myself. gahhh.. the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. hah. oh well.. I'm not going church visiting today cuz im supposed to be sick. i

2003-04-16T11:51:00.000-07:00

- bored. very very bored - Another one of those. Here we go again.. 1.. What is the time right now? 2.28am 2.. Name? Jocelyn 3.. Nicknames? Jojo, joce, yeah.the list goes on and on..thanks alot everyone 4.. What are you wearing right now? my oversized hurley tee and fbt shorts. yay. 5.. Star sign: gemini 6.. Where do you live: in some suburbian shithole in goddamned singapore 7.. Sex: female 8..

2003-04-16T11:00:00.000-07:00

- b o r e d p h u c k - I guess i'm not going to school tomorrow again. Sigh. Didnt do much today. Spent most of it on the damned computer. Try as i might, studying at home just isnt as productive as studying outside. I dont know. Maybe i'm just not trying hard enough. Oh well.. off to bed now. Ive just finished fixing the navigating bar for my site. yay. .clickonthis::my.site.+wheee+ I'm

2003-04-16T08:35:00.000-07:00

.:.+ [ *wheeeeeee* - REVAMP! BOW DOWN TO ME ]+ .:. [+ i rock your socks +] Okay. After hours of hard work, ive finally managed to perfect this template. yessssssssssssssss. -grins happily- I ROCK!!! To my sister if she sees this : HAH.YOU SUCK. BOW DOWN TO ME blasting____________________Distant memory :: Poff

2003-04-16T05:39:00.000-07:00

+ The Biggest joke i've ever heard + Wow.. Guess what i just heard.. Those peer-support-leaders-shitheads are becoming counsellors with us. THEY. Those good-for-nothing useless people who don't know ANYTHING. HAH. They THINK that they can be compared to us? You've gotta be shitting me. We slogged for 10 fuckin months just to be put down to the same level as those halfwitted imbeciles. Some

2003-04-16T00:25:00.000-07:00

[Jocelyn is bored] No school for me today. Poor little sick girl... ( : +wheeeeeeeeeeeee.picturrrressssssssssssss+ . . . . . . . . .jocelyn is bored. . . . . . . . jocelyn is very bored. BOW DOWN TO ME

2003-04-15T10:18:00.000-07:00

Fuck.something.is.wrong

2003-04-15T05:20:00.000-07:00

[ g a h h h h ..] Hell..ive got lotsa vocab and stuff to mug, yet i'm here in front of the damned computer, wasting my time. I swear the internet was made by the devil. Oh well. I'm off MMmmmm..my entries are getting shorter and shorter as the days go by..interesting... blasting__________________phantom planet :: somebody's baby

2003-04-14T04:16:00.000-07:00

[killing.me.softly] Okay. I've made up my mind. I'm gonna limit myself to two hours a day at the computer. I cant fuckin screw up my mid years. I just cant... blasting_________________weezer :: island in the sun

2003-04-12T14:38:00.000-07:00

WOW. this place looks like shit. -shrugs- Oh well... I'll fix it later. Its 5:36am and I actually plan to sleep. Later..

2003-04-12T11:41:00.000-07:00

So here i am yet again in front of the damned computer instead of doing my fucking work. Please keep in mind i am writing this under extreme frustration and stress, hence for the many expletives. Im trying to do my fuckin amath and there is no fucking person who can help me. God. I'm going insane. This is great. Back to work. blasting____________________________fuck authority :: pennywise

2003-04-11T07:30:00.000-07:00

[ empire records.. o p e n e d t i l m i d n i g h t ] borrow three shows..white oleander, about a boy and the sweetest thing.. gonna watch all of em tonight. movie marathon. shiok. okay..gonna mug later. oh yeah. EMPIRE RECORDS R0X0RS =D blasting_______________________gin blossoms :: til i hear it from you

2003-04-09T08:39:00.000-07:00

[ p a r a n o i a ] Why? blasting____________________________norah jones :: dont know why

2003-04-08T21:28:00.000-07:00

[ Blodes Arschloch ] Ich werde gebohrt. Es gibt nichts zu tun. Sigh. That's it. Ich verlasse... Auf Wiedersehen Arschloche \m/ blasting__________________________first time :: bad ronald

2003-04-07T13:25:00.000-07:00

.Angels.or.Devils. This is the last time/that I'm ever gonna come here tonight/this is the last time/I will fall /into a place that fails us all - inside/I can see the pain in you/I can see/the love in you/but fighting all the demons will take time/it will take time/the angels they burn inside for us/are we ever/are we ever gonna learn to fly/the devils they burn inside of us/are we ever gonna

2003-04-07T12:51:00.000-07:00

[ w a s t e d ] Its a quarter to four I havent had much mood to study recently. Dont know why. Sigh. Sometimes i wished i had more willpower. I give up too easily. Maybe you're right. Im just all talk no action. I dont know. I just feel so useless and stupid all of a sudden. Its not like i dont try. Sometimes my best just isnt good enough. Maybe i'm over-reacting like i always do. Like how

2003-04-07T12:29:00.000-07:00

The Ultimate Personality Quiz: Your type: Independent Individualist As a Friend: Not one to follow the crowd, you’re fiercely independent and can come across as a bit of a loner. Really, you just have high expectations and you won’t compromise your beliefs to fit in. If you’re not the most popular gal in school, remember that many people secretly admire your strength ‘n’ individuality, and wish

2003-04-06T01:28:00.000-08:00

[dumb survey ] Another dumb survey. I stole it off Jazreen this time. haha thanks millions. Wellll,its pretty evident i need to get a hobby. MMmm...any suggestions? I know you'll read it cuz you love me =D [my name is]: jocelyn. make that the great. [height?]: 1.65. I feel so much taller now that you've reminded me [in the morning i am]: hyper. dont ask. i just am. [all I need is]: money. money

2003-04-05T11:19:00.000-08:00

[ s p i n ] Just finished Cruel Intentions and all i can say is, wow. The plot is great, superb and excellently acted out. I'm still waiting for empire records to finish. I guess i'll only be able to watch it tomorrow. Oh well.. go watch cruel intentions. fantastic. I'm still pretty taken away by it. five goddamned stars man.. blasting___________________________new radicals :: dreamers disease

2003-04-05T01:22:00.000-08:00

[ w h e e e e e e e e ] WE ARE STARTING SCHOOL ON THE 14TH!! YAY!! r0x0r. Didnt eat much lunch. The food mom cooked was sucky. I swear it was an elaborate plan to get me to eat less. Mom put those parsley thingies into every dish resulting in pure torture everytime i had a mouthful. so i gave up halfway and ate bread for lunch instead. Anyhow. It's dad's birthday today and we're going to

2003-04-04T12:43:00.000-08:00

[ l i f e s a b i t c h ] It's 3.45am in the morning and i think i'm gonna shoot myself. Boredom is getting the better of me. .h.e.l.p. I have math tuition in 9 hours time. How fantastic is that? Well..if you're wondering why I'm up, im waiting for the newspaper. the daily straits time that is. I need to know if we're going to have the holidays extended so yeah..its a vigil of some sort. Ive a

2003-04-04T05:51:00.000-08:00

[rain rain go away] Remind me again not to wear flipflops when its raining heavily outside okay? I nearly slipped to my death twice today. How embarrasing. Went out today on the pretext of doing my chemistry project but i headed towards town instead with maryann. Met darryl (some sailor dude) and his 2 other friends.man..the place was like ghost town. I guess Singaporeans really are being

2003-04-02T07:28:00.000-08:00

[ r a n d a l l i s s o h o t ] Well actually i wanted to fill this whole page with rants about my mom. but i just watched a re run of last night's episode of lightyears and man..is randall hot or what? =P~ so as i was saying, i had this huge fight with my mom again. over the fact that my clothes are untidily scattered around in my room. sheesh. so basically she's giving me the cold shoulder

2003-04-01T03:29:00.000-08:00

[a p r i l f o o l s] Got woken at about one today by Miss low [ last year's geog teacher ]. Called my house to make me answer some fuckedup questions from the school and yes, i couldnt fall back asleep after that -grumbles- Today was a bad day. I tried to study but couldnt cuz i couldnt concentrate. Logged on the internet only to be bugged by irritating people -stares at guilty parties- you

2003-03-30T11:57:00.000-08:00

happy thanksgiving!!

2003-03-29T22:05:00.000-08:00

[melancholy] Jocelyn, you are most afraid of not belonging Have you ever noticed that you're more concerned about whether others will love and care for you than many people around you are? Or do you sometimes worry more than you should about being unneeded, unimportant, or even ostracized by those around you? If so, you're not alone. There are many people who share your fear of not belonging.

2003-03-29T21:52:00.000-08:00

[vertical.] Got woken up at today at about nine forty five by a very pissed off dad. Apparently he thought that mass was at 10 and yeah. he started yelling cuz i was still asleep [ mass is actually at 10:45 ] and i HATE. i repeat. HATE. people distrupting my sleep. NEVER.come.between.me.and.my.sleep. So obviously I started the day on a very bad note. Thanks dad. I feel so much better now. Went

2003-03-29T06:03:00.000-08:00

My neighbours' houses. Now go stalk them..

2003-03-29T04:10:00.000-08:00

[mindnumbingly.boring] Here i am infront of the computer. Again. For the third time today. Hell..i need to get a life. The recent outbreak of Sars has left my parents more paranoid then ever. I cant even go out now. Doesnt that rock or what. My daily routine has now been reduced to eating. sleeping. watching vcds and ircing. I wake up at about 12. Have lunch. Watch some vcds. Turn the

2003-03-28T08:29:00.000-08:00

[ dust ] dust in the wind blowing in your face can’t see where your going don’t remember where you’ve been its dirt on the ground the mud on your face confess struggle to tell clean yourself dust in the wind dust in your eyes contaminate your sins they tear you out inside understanding of a child sanity of a killer’s mind happy thoughts you try catch it now try to find the exit outside enter

2003-03-28T05:32:00.000-08:00

[its.getting.boring] Yay. another quiz for you guys to read. I feel loved =X [ last time ] Really Smiled : An hour ago Laughed : I dont care. Cried : Tears are for wusses Bought.something : My Orange County VCD. Colin Hanks is so hott -grin- Danced : Fuck dancing Were sarcastic : sarcastic?.im.not.sarcastic.since.when.have.i.becomed.sarcastic? Watched your favorite movie : Yesterday. Orange

2003-03-27T12:35:00.000-08:00

[shoot.me.now.] Hey. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH -screams- Its official. I am going insane. Its 4:19am. What the fuck am i doing up at this hour? I dont know either. School's been closed til the 6th of April. Hurray to that man. Seriously, this one week "holiday" came in good time. I mean..ive been reaaally slacking these few weeks and my grades

2003-03-24T06:49:00.000-08:00

[.trauma.] hi. school starts tomorrow and ive not a)done any homework b)revised what ive learnt c) ironed my uniform. damn. i love myself. =D Here's a survey i stole off somebody's journal. Its long but i know you'll read it cuz you know you love me *grin* Seven Deadly Sins Survey ANGER [1. Who did you last get angry with?] My mom. for being sucha unreasonable overbearing overholy bitch who

2003-03-24T05:14:00.000-08:00

[beat.the.system] i don't need you to tell me what to do and i don't need you to tell me what to be... fuck you. i don't need you to tell me what to say and i don't need you to tell me what to think. what to think. what to think, what to think, what to think, think, think, think. you've gotta die, gotta die, gotta die for your government. die for your country. that's shit. peace.

2003-03-21T21:15:00.000-08:00

[pictures.bleah] Presentinnnng...Stuff around Letta's house which i found particularly amusing... wahahahahahaha..i love this koala.eyeless courtesy of Missy, their black pooch. Meet Carla's pooping rabbit. Hell..i dont know what they feed it but man..does it shit alot or what? So there. Im too lazy to continue. so yeah. there you have it. Nicolette's house. =D blasting_____________________

2003-03-21T20:00:00.000-08:00

blah

2003-03-19T19:08:00.000-08:00

[our.lives.are.in.the.hands.of.bickering.men.who.hold.the.true.power.in.the.world.today. and.we.the.helpless.people.are.victims.who.cant.do.anything.] War might happen anytime now. In the end, I think we are just tired of being lied to. Tired of being talked down to, of being bombarded with Second World War jingoism and scare stories and false information and student essays dressed up as "

2003-03-16T00:09:00.000-08:00

One two three four One day i woke up woke up knowing today is the day i will die cash dog was barkin went to the park and enjoyed it one last time I called my mother told her i loved her and i begged her not to cry I wrote a letter said i'd miss her and i signed that goodbye you know the happiest day of my life i swear the happiest day of my life is the day that i die Can you feel the cold

2003-03-15T08:18:00.000-08:00

MY EARS HURT. imagine being in a small enclosed room and listening to VERY VERY VERY loud music for 2 hours.tagged along when julz and green went jamming. felt like one of those fuckin groupies. The St Nicks funfair was horrid. WELCOME TO HELL. a picture speaks a thousand words. im too lazy to type anything more.so yeah. here's POFF.

2003-03-13T19:26:00.000-08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH SCHOOL'S OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOOO. There's some stupid awards ceremony thingie goin on this evening. gonna be down for duty.-grumbles- My school treats prefects like dirt. Not only do with have to do their dirty work for free, they dont even thank us. damned those wicked people. anyway..im gonna go catch a mid-day nap.im beat.

2003-03-13T03:01:00.000-08:00

[have.i.really.brought.it.all.upon.myself?] sometimes i wonder why i cant be like everyone else. get alone with my family. think "normal" thoughts or even have "normal" dreams. why i cant have a nice happy conversation with my mom without getting into an arguement. why i cant stay at home without picking a fight with my siblings. Why I have to think about the world and all that injustices and

2003-03-11T02:54:00.000-08:00

Hey kids. I've been pretty much slackin the past few days. Havent had the time to write anythin much.and WOOHOO. ive got a distinction for english. So anyway. Here's it for today. Lent. A period of 40 days or aproximately six weeks where we "catholics" are left to ponder, remorse and repent for out sins, not to mention fasting and abstaining from meat. It is said in the bible that during this 40

2003-03-06T07:23:00.000-08:00

Okay.. IM BACK. GREAT. To date, i have already failed 3 papers. How fab huh? Amath -20/50 Emath - 16/50 and geography 12/40. wahahaha.maybe the school'll lemme take up history and drop amath or somethin. Geography is tough. all that stupid fuckin reading of maps make me dizzy. And to think i thought it was the easier of the two. Its pretty obvious that my calling is with history innit? Anyway,

2003-03-05T09:21:00.000-08:00

moohaha. this ain't jocelyn. a new force has taken over. for the time being of course you will have your great host back soon so don't worry. somehow i got in here. hm. alrighty then. my identity does not need to be known neither do i really care abt you reading on the other side do i ? :) yeap.. i will take a totally neutral stand on the happenings of this little url here. the place of quite a

2003-03-04T07:07:00.000-08:00

[Equality?] Freedom of speech. Cant anyone have it anymore these days? Today, some teacher told me to remove some stupid fucked words from my shoe cuz she felt that it was politically offensive. To her that is. This IS my shoe isnt it? There isnt some fuckin rule thats says i cant doodle on them. What the hell is wrong with writing "red, white, brainwashed" and "down with the system" anyway?

2003-03-02T04:59:00.000-08:00

[tradition?.i.think.not] Hello kids. Today, we'll discuss tradition and why i hate it so much. The word tradition means "opinions, beliefs and customs handed down from generations to generations" Or maybe beliefs and doctrines that are supposed to have some sort of authority. Tradition in every society and religious group is inviolatable. It is more so in close clustered communities. Any

2003-02-28T07:38:00.000-08:00

[b.u.r.p] Hey kids.. Im off at Jean's place. SLEEEPOVERRRR *squeaaaaLllXx* wahahaha. That was so lemming. So a minute ago, Jane was burping. and burping. and burping. and burping in my goddamned ear. You have no idea how gross it was. Anyway, I'm broke again. 5 birthdays this week. Christ~ Y'know..the funny thing about birthdays is that whenever you and ur friends go out for dinner or somethin,

2003-02-27T13:30:00.000-08:00

[F.U.C.K.I.T] well..i wont be goin to school today. Told my mom i didn have anything important to attend to so she said "whatever" when truth is, i have a geography paper. wahahaha. Oh well..what you don't know wont kill you. I dont feel like typing much so i'll end here. sigh. \m/ blasting________________________Fenix Tx :: speechless feeling_________________________crappy and bored

2003-02-26T08:45:00.000-08:00

[F.O.R.E.W.O.R.D] Today was NOT a good day. I failed my math paper. ahem. 19/50 when i could have gotten 31/50. Carelessness. argh -tears out hair-. Anyway, today's entry will be short.cuz im sleepy.will add more tomorrow Okay..I should have added this in a long time ago. This is a forewarning cuz im getting people bitch at me about my.ahem.harsh language. So here it is. Let me remind you all

2003-02-25T06:29:00.000-08:00

[For.World.Peace!] Well..I got back my chinese paper today. Kinda screwed it up. Okay. I DID screw it up. 25/50, but hey..atleast i passed right? I dont see what the big deal with chinese anyway. I mean, Singapore IS supposed to be a "malayan" state, cuz like the first people here were made up of malay people and we belonged to the malay archipelago thingie. So shouldnt our national language be

2003-02-24T05:11:00.000-08:00

[MAKE.UP.YOUR.BLOODY.MIND.GODDAMIT] " I dislike judgemental people " So says my contradicting CME teacher. Hello? Are you just plain stupid or just playing dumb? I hate people who are judgemental? -silent sniggers- We recieved our CME test thingie today. And i almost failed it. Not because i have no morals, not because i failed to study, but because the teacher is a hypocritical closeminded uhm

2003-02-23T00:12:00.000-08:00

[- e.u.p.h.o.r.i.a -] Its 8:01PM. Im sitting in front of the computer. Its sunday night and i am so goddamned bored. School resumes tommorrow. What absolutely fabulous news. I cant wait for the March Hols. Sigh. God saves us all. Before anyone thinks im an ignorant bitch who likes to whine about everything, I'ld just like to say that reading this is of your own accord and everyone is entitled to